[The bright side of depression, in my case, is my renewed faith to our Creator. With all honesty, it was during that lowest point of my life, when I fully realized His love, grace, and compassion. That amid the severity of my health battles: I completed my degree, now working for a decent company and out of Rx—I truly feel so blessed. So, to Him be all the glory and praise! But in deep gratitude, I scribbled a sonnet (a little polished this time, having the iambic pentameter of abab cdcd efef gg), and all for this growing agape I have inside. Blessings to you all! Aloha kakou and mahalo nui everybody!]
I am somebody because you love me.
Yes, nobodiness . . . Emily’s business;
But immersed, to love you is my heart’s decree.
Yours is a masterpiece of quaintness.
Enduring, liberating, promising,
Divine, unconditional, eternal—
Yours and yours alone is everlasting!
Yours and yours alone . . . sovereign perpetual!
Perhaps I was at some point nobody.
Perhaps to some ears, . . . a ding, or a pop.
Perchance to some eyes, a blank, a void, Ye.
Perchance to some some, nothing but a dot.
_ But I vowed my head; I clasped my hands.
_ I heard you say you love me just as You’re Grand.
[As a self-taught poet, I wrote many odes, ballads, and even haikus—but not a sonnet—because it’s extremely hard. As it is made of 14 lines with 10 syllables each and ideally rhyming. Usually something of deep desire, sonnets are the “forte” of the great William Shakespeare (who is especially known for iamb characteristics). Finally, and thankfully, I penned one down. Please bear with my first. Feel free to comment “for my missus” guys. I love you! And thank you so much!]
Why iamb goes double when I think of you?
I’m sure, espresso has nothing to do.
Not about the abs; no, not that one too!
Just as Valli sings, haven’t lay hands too.
How true? You; iamb. You; iamb, iamb.
Poems, blues, text, emojis in pink— . . . think those too.
Maybe when you say my name that would do.
Can Venus or the stars blink for some clues?
Why most answers are at-large? Got it woods!
For whatever reason, . . . just thanks, I’m alive.
Grateful for our to-dos—-I really do!
Spring wind gently brushing skin: Thrive dream, thrive!
Summer sun peeps, . . . and so thoughts of shave ice.
You; iamb. You; iamb, iamb, iamb.
YouTube/My Eyes Adored You/Frankie Valli & the Four Season
Aloha kakou! I hope this reach you in good health and great spirit. Thank you so much for dropping by and reading this post! As always, your presence here is greatly appreciated.
As for me, on April 13 I tested positive for Covid-19. However, more than my mortality, I was concerned about my new work, which I started in January.
In brief, my duties are mostly time sensitive and requires great deal of attention to detail. It entails helping small businesses avail assistance (pandemic related) from the federal government.
Thus, I got the position; because it was my graduating (Spring 2021) accounting research project in the University of Hawai’i – West O’ahu. Modesty aside, I earned a decent grade for it. I was even awarded a commendation by the faculty in a virtual student research symposium. Don’t get me wrong. It’s not about me. I worked on it so passionately for most businesses here, in this Aloha state, are small businesses. I know (first hand) how they struggled during the pandemic.
Hence, it’s a common knowledge that the Covid-19 pandemic hurt economies. It disrupted businesses especially, small businesses in the travel, hotel and lodging, and restaurants industries from 2020 and who knows ‘til now. Without the help from the government and the community, they won’t make it.
For that reason and personally too, although I suffered from some symptoms and quite a handful of medical procedures; I can’t be bitter for the positive diagnosis. Because without Covid-19, I don’t even have my job. Truthfully, through my work:
I got renewed confidence, I recovered from depression, I am back hoping for a better future—but most importantly, I have this bundle of joy from doing something meaningful, touching people’s lives. It is such a humbling privilege. I am so grateful to God.
That amid negative test result, and yet I still suffer from itchy throat; I still get easily tired; but, I can’t be sour nor bitter. Simply because, I am still helping a lot of people too everyday. And I find no trivial question or request from anyone who truly needs help.
For example, one lady customer who claimed she was uncomfortable with computers and the Internet (which are integral to many work processes). Although, it’s out of my job description already, I walked her through the process over the phone for more than twenty minutes (or so) for about two weeks. And then when we successfully completed her affairs, she offered me complimentary services in their salon. She said, “Are you here on O’ahu?” I answered, “Yes.”
She continued, “If you have a chance to come in this area, please visit our salon. We do facial tattoos/permanent makeup. Please let us compliment you for your amazing help all throughout.” I said, “No, ma’am. Thank you. You are so kind and sweet. But we’re just so thankful to be of service to you.” And I mean it with all my heart. I wish to tell her, I am just a humble instrument of God.
I guess what I am trying to share: Life is full of ironies. And we are all vulnerable. But no matter good or bad, there’s always goodness in everything. Lastly, there’s an outright joy in finding and striving for common good.
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